your songs remind me of swimming

i'm in a bloggy mood

so here's an update on my to do list: (things in bold tell of my accomplishments)

-print most of my pictures and make photo albums

-make a quilt and/or crochet an afghan in the process of sewing all my quilt pieces together

-make a book

- lose 20 pounds Lost 5 pounds!

-write a song have 2 verses and a chorus down, no instruments yet though

-write a letter to someone

- print out all online blogs since high school and bind them.

today is valentine's day (aka single awareness day). Even my little 8 year old girls have Valentines who gave them chocolate hearts. But i'm going to treat it like any other day, and then buy flowers the next day for myself because they will all be marked down! :)

a few days ago at work I met a lady named Dot who is a painter and she invited me to come check out her studio (which is down the hall from my office) so i plan to next week. hopefully i can start networking in this community of artists and get myself going somewhere. I don't really know where I wanna go but I feel like I will know it when I get there.

Me and Jackie are planning a trip down to NYC in April which I'm pretty stoked about. Ever since graduating college I've felt this immense freedom that I could just pack a suitcase and drive anywhere I want to. It's a feeling i've never had before, to know that if i have enough money and will power I can go anywhere in the world I want to. very liberating. Granted right now my dreams and wallet divert me to inner state places such as NYC or Philly. I've never had such a desire to travel. absolutely wonderful Thanks Houghton!

This week my mom dad and sister are going to the Dominican Republic starting at 4am today (its 12 now) i'm sad i can't go with them due to work. But i'm actually getting excited about being by myself for a week. I have plans to do stuff with friends and make a trip out to houghton and I think it will be a much needed R&R break for me. I've realized (or have already known and this just reaffirms it) that I need a lot of time to myself. I feel more at ease and one with myself when i'm alone for a certain amount of time each day. so when i come home from work and spend an hour in my room it isn't to shut anyone out, it's just that i need to rewind and not think about my surroundings for a bit. Plus I always have really good conversations with myself, in a way i'm my own best friend. so this week will allow me to live in myself and maybe check some more things off my to do list :) Hopefully I can finish and record my song this week (having an empty house allows me to sing my lungs out).