if there is spray paint on my car tomorrow.......

Dear April,

so far so good. please keep looking up.

love,

me

today one of my girls said, "Miss Ashley! I have an idea we could do for science! you can go buy some spray paint and then we can go and spray paint your car and make it look all pretty!".... she was dead serious with a twinkle in her eye and everything.... what is my life?

NYC with Jackie was a blast! although it was way too short! maybe I'll have to go back sometime soon. soon. soon. I don't feel like giving a debriefing so just look at my pictures on facebook... they tell the story.

I'm VERY apathetic towards my job right now. I think it's just getting old to me, and I'm not a science person so i'm losing interest in it. and not to mention getting paid pretty close to nothing. money's tight but i don't really have time for a part time job. this is lame. and I have to wait until october to get another job because that is when my year is up.

on the upside, I feel like I am impacting some kids lives in a way, I've started talking to my girls more about personal beliefs and morals because they've opened up to me in that way. anything from talking about religion and if i go to church every sunday to asking if i swear or say hell. They were shocked when I told them I would never live with a boyfriend, their world needs some serious changing. They all come from broken families, or weren't even families to begin with. very different from how i grew up. So in that aspect it's been cool to see things happening, but that's not my job... my job is to tutor and do science. bleh bleh bleh.

I've been painting a lot more... well maybe not a lot but def more. I've kind of gotten this jolt to sink into my skin and show who i am and who i want to be, because I do describe myself as an artist so i should start acting like one right? haha.

check out my art blog for all of my recent artwork (aka 3 paintings) www.excavationinspiration.blogspot.com

sometimes life catches you by surprise and you can't really see why or what will happen next... but it's always good in the end, right? I'm intrigued to see what the next few months hold for me, i don't think there's any way of predicting it in my head so i'm not even gonna try. :)

by the way.... i've lost 16 lbs so far. woot! 34 more lbs to go. ugh.