I am dreamer

I've been playing out situations in my head. situations that involve me moving somewhere. for instance, NYC. thinking about where i would live, what kind of job I would look for, who i would be with. It's possible i suppose to move anywhere, it just seems like thats a big step from where i'm at now. i don't think I necessarily want to move away anyways, I'd miss family and friends too much. Plus i'm not much of a go-getter so trying to find a job would be like hell for me.

I guess I've been thinking about this because I feel as though i'm waiting for something to happen, like right now i'm on a train just waiting to get off. to get to my destination. to settle somewhere. I guess that will come with time, once I get a good job, have my own place. But how much do I have to MAKE it happen, and how much to I just LET it happen? I'm more of a dreamer so I like to let things happen. It's out of my comfort zone to Make things happen. will they both get me to my destination? who knows.

wow, this is weird... i just typed the title to this post and realized that the shirt I wore today said 'beautiful dreamer' on it. I haven't worn that shirt in a year... strange.

i'm gonna keep dreaming.

gnite.